MinneapolitanMusic

My life is all new and weird. Here are some things I like and dislike about the new and weird stuff in my life.

(When I was a kid, I was a perpetual worry-wart, so much so that I couldn't fall asleep at night. To remedy the situation, my mom would ask me to share "one good feeling and one bad feeling" before bed, which invariably helped me to vent and sleep. This is my grown-up version of sharing these feelings. Also, I felt like making some lists.)

What I like about my job:

1. My job mainly consists of going to shows, talking to musicians, talking to writers, and writing.
2. I am able to pull all-nighters and work 60+ hours a week without really noticing or minding.
3. This is what I see when I turn my head 90 degrees to the right:
   
   
   
4. The other writers here are really cool and smart. Also, they are nice to me.
5. I will never, ever, ever run out of new music to check out.
6. Sometimes, I have time to read books, have drinks with friends, or just plain relax. After three years of working two to three jobs at once, this is a godsend.

What I don't like about my new job:

1. A large portion of my friends have started only contacting me when they want something. This makes me sad.
2. I spend an inordinate amount of time worrying what people might think.
3. The cafeteria downstairs is expensive and serves huge portions. Since I eat at my desk, this is unfortunate.
4. Sometimes, when I lay down to go to sleep at night, I can't breathe.

What I like about being single:

1. I can have Lunchables and Sierra Nevada for dinner.
2. My cat and I have full conversations about our respective days.
3. I can stay out as late as I want, go wherever I want, hang out with whomever I want, and pretty much do whatever, whenever.
4. Re-learning how to flirt is fun.
5. I'm starting to feel self-confident (sometimes) for the first time in ages.
6. There are some other things that I will keep to myself, but that are amazing.
   

What I don't like about being single:

1. I miss cuddling. A lot.
2. Life feels like it will always be up in the air from here on out.
3. Everyone is always asking me how I am with sad eyes and understanding pats on the arm, turning perfectly happy social situations into moody and serious ones.
4. Going to the store has become embarrassing. True story: the other day I had to face a young checkout boy while purchasing 10 light Yoplaits, 6 Lean Cuisines, a case of Fancy Feast, and a box of tampons. I felt like the punchline to a Cathy comic.
5. No one cares if I stay out late. This one makes me both happy and sad.